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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XruZKwYoWEA

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http://www.imeem.com/isuda/music/wmToPTN_/rue-du-soleil-missing/?rel=1

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I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to think and belive I am free.I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to presume I express or clarify MY ideas for the way I live my life.I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to think the words can express my inner state of being.I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to deny the

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I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear fear itself.I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself for not having the ability to recognize, accept,face and deal with the inner conflict with me.I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to run from the inner conflict with me.I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to strive to be

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kudI7o630ZQ&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fwww%2Eastrohoroscope%2Einfo%2Fmovie%2Ephp&feature=player_embedded

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I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to think that selfforgiveness demeans me.I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to escape from the responsibility I am the one, who creates my reality.I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to become a slave of my ego's illusions.I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself letting be

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I closed my eyes and tried to withdraw from my thoughts, to be an observer.It became a messy chaos and everything was going so quick, so I couldn't catch all of them. I was comletely awake and at some point I focused my look and I saw a path. It was a bit windy, the path narrow and gravel, but I knew I must go on. So I went further. It became quiet and I saw a gate. I've opened the gate and I

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I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to strive to be always 'right'.I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to think my life experience is an equality for wisdom and 'knowledge'.I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to define myself first of all as a woman, instead of me expressing me within and as oneness and equality of life.I forgive

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"I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to excuse people who hurt me."_____________I've stopped and start investigating that. I don't say I haven't been thinking about it before. But since I am on this process I've learned to pay more attention on my thoughts,words and acts.I am not sure how it came to let that happen. It seems it became natural for me to excuse people who hurt

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hjU0Kr4--hQ

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience separation.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience I've been separated from ONE.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I'm different.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself feeling lower than others.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait and postpoin my life to start.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest the purpose of my life, puting on first place my obligations as: a wife, a worker, a friend, a subordinate, a mother, a sinner, etc.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I deserve to be punished.I forgive

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I've run the water and the bath tab started to fill up. I sat on the edge of the bath tab, watching the water.And a storm of thoughts broke in with the picture at front of my eyes. It was amazing how a power like water's one, coming with the whole it's strentgh, faced the strenght of bath tab's walls and accepted their shapes. But there was something funny. Water's power created billions of

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be entraped in numbers of slavories: money sistem, religion, "intelectual" growth, desires, feelings, emotions, consciousness, time, etc...I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to function as a robot and copy other's behaviour, accepting it as a 'normal'.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to '

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I had a strange freezing experience today. Still haven't got an explanation about it. I was in the bathroom washing my hands, and whilst drying them, glanced the mirror. You know how is it, I just can't help it - it's mainly a habit to do it. So I glanced it...Suddenly I couldn't take my eyes of it. I mean I was watching my eyes at the mirror, well - not the eyes exactly, I fixed my eyes on my

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http://www.imeem.com/erbapp/music/1dQPmkSK/zino-tommy-aint-feel-nothing/

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Years ago while studied, I collapsed on my first visit in the operating room, but I stood still in the mortuary. I guess it sounds cynically. Then I spent 15 years working in a Surgical ward, facing life and death every single day.I still do.A woman with a mental disease ignited herself - died 72 hours after; 11 years old boy with a bowels cancer - teaching his mother how to pray - died 40 days

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FY53Rk-6-3I

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All my life I feel like an alien amongst the others. I was scared of it, I pushed myself to change, I made tens (maybe hundreds, thousands compromises) with myself, I still do it and it's not only a statement, I still judge myself about it.But I can't help it... I never used to like talking let say e.g. about a fashion, gossiping, kniting, make up, trying to copy film stars, etc ;so I couldn't

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself live within sociaty's boundary and accept it as the only possible place to live in.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be frightened of the emptiness inside , developed for the last 8 years .I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself suffering from this emptiness ,insted to be happy I managed not to

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Work, bath, bed...work, bath, bed...work, bath, bed...to a state to become a robot.How many and what great constant efforts I have done to assist the programme to keep this robot active. Copying all the rest of the robots - being a small 'person', having a 'small' partner, living in a small 'safe home' with small thoughts, yet with great desires, dreams and hopes... Yeah - bunch of craps, as a

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http://www.imeem.com/iacbabe/music/cFIRMgbw/shalimar-sector-garden-of-lust/

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It's Saturday.I'm alone. I've prepared a meal, spent an hour and little bit more, set it up nicely on the table and got a glass of wine. No TV, no PC, no music. Twilight and silance... and me...and 'ME'. Hm...feels crowdy. I can lock the door, isolate myself amongst the walls, but a presence is there, I can not get rid of it. It is in me, it is ME!!! I have no power enough to ignore it or isolate

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I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be a victim.I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to love myself.I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to love myself unconditionally.I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to accept me for who I am.I forgive myself that I have not considered myself important.I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to consider myself

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I cought myself recently saying quite often to others: "I know how you feeling". I used to avoid saying it, because mainly we couldn't know it in fact. It's just a way to have compassion on them. And it wouldn't be fair to say empty words.So I realized I'm saying the above and I realized how many feelings I let to hold me, to rule me and to destroy, ruine me.I don't dream very often, or to be

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2012Quotations from a book I'm reading: Part 2Mirroring our culture, we had chosen to pursue altered states in a destructive way - one that accorded with our unconscious nihilism...There might be lost modalities of consciousness, inconvinient possibilities of being, suppressed by the swarming distractions and anxieties of contemporary life.What if the evolution of consciousness, rather than an

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Quotations from a book I'm reading:...Human concsiousness is rapidly transitioning to a new state, a new intensity of awareness that will manifest itself as a different understanding, a transformed realization, of time and space and self. By this thesis, the transition is already under way - though largely subliminally - and will become increasingly evident as we approach the year 2012... If we

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http://www.imeem.com/people/_JToB2q/music/AhsndAnT/yiddu_delhi_tender_touch/http://www.imeem.com/people/0sKVFy9/music/c5kaZJCC/mastermind_wanna_give_you_shelter/http://www.imeem.com/rainer58/music/Y9dvVzPG/jason_tyrello_what_the_memories_say_sunfade_mix/http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nB5akMXV9hM&feature=PlayList&p=207B7E3A51C3EC12&index=3http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-TukAPkmikohttp://

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend decades creating a person, I am not.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to live up to other's expectations.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to escape from the resposnsibility to be my real-self.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to store moments as memories

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